What is it to love? By: Keishianna McCarthy

What is it to love someone?

Is it that tickle in the pit of your stomach?

Is it the shiver down your spine, when they say things that you have only dreamt of before.

That moment you go weak in the knees as he slides his hand into the small of your back to support you physically and emotionally.

The way he moves the hair out of your face or wipes your tears?

What is it to love?

Is it to laugh and laugh until your stomach hurts and tears gather.

Is it to smile so much that the muscles in your face are exhausted?

Is it to connect mind, body, spirit, soul?

What is it to be in love?

Is it the constant thoughts of you ?

Is it the memories that flood my mind

or bring a smile to my face?

Is it a longing for your voice bellowing in my ear?

The joy that comes as i watch you bent over in continuous laughter?

The way you look at me, and see just me.

Afraid yet courageous

Vibrant yet closed off

wanting so badly to trust

that this won't hurt

that this will last

that you FEEL what i do.

What is it to love?

because if its all that i have mentioned

it didn't take me very long

to have something quite strong

and i have known all along

that i would fall

tumbling down to the ground

in LOVE with you.

Now, what on earth am i going to do

if you don't have the answers to

What it means to Love.

Static

I know how it has made me feel in the past

Times of joy and happiness

but did i choose it because i wanted it

or because i needed a way out

Out of my current reality

out of sorrows

And into new tomorrows

I know I have believed

and have loved it so

but I find myself at a painful crossroad

I want more than I have had

Maybe the timing and location are just bad

But I feel like a familiar story

filled with rabbit holes

mischievous men

and half birthday celebrations

I wish I could see past this fork in the road

to where I will end up

But in reality there is no fast forward

no rewind

no oops my bad, maybe next time

What was peaceful silence

is now loud and confusing

I can't make out the voices

I can make out the faces

My world spin and falls

rises and turns

where beautiful music once played

all there is, is static.

Air- Keishianna McCarthy

I can't breathe
I feel a bit numb
in the place where the beat should be steady
Has it increased to a rapid hum?
I feel my chest rise and fall
but I still lie unsure
of my current consciousness
My eyes slowly water
my knees give in
Is this reality
Is this fantasy
Your scent fills my nostrils
I can't breathe
my entire body quivers
a woman in the body of a young girl
for the first time in like,
in love, in lust, is lost
in the moment
Can you see my soul
Can you feel my fear
Can you help me to stop
falling
fearing
fighting
I can't breathe
you took all my air.