Static

I know how it has made me feel in the past

Times of joy and happiness

but did i choose it because i wanted it

or because i needed a way out

Out of my current reality

out of sorrows

And into new tomorrows

I know I have believed

and have loved it so

but I find myself at a painful crossroad

I want more than I have had

Maybe the timing and location are just bad

But I feel like a familiar story

filled with rabbit holes

mischievous men

and half birthday celebrations

I wish I could see past this fork in the road

to where I will end up

But in reality there is no fast forward

no rewind

no oops my bad, maybe next time

What was peaceful silence

is now loud and confusing

I can't make out the voices

I can make out the faces

My world spin and falls

rises and turns

where beautiful music once played

all there is, is static.

Air- Keishianna McCarthy

I can't breathe
I feel a bit numb
in the place where the beat should be steady
Has it increased to a rapid hum?
I feel my chest rise and fall
but I still lie unsure
of my current consciousness
My eyes slowly water
my knees give in
Is this reality
Is this fantasy
Your scent fills my nostrils
I can't breathe
my entire body quivers
a woman in the body of a young girl
for the first time in like,
in love, in lust, is lost
in the moment
Can you see my soul
Can you feel my fear
Can you help me to stop
falling
fearing
fighting
I can't breathe
you took all my air.